It's been a while and I've really missed writing on this blog. I'm actually really happy that I write on here, because it's a lot easier than writing in my journal. Whenever I write in my journal my hand really hurts after a while, which sucks because I like to write a LOT.
So... the last thing I wrote on here was a letter to a certain person...
Since then, I made an effort to talk to that person, he responded by saying he agrees and finds it really weird/ awkward that we have not talked lately, and I got so excited that things were about to go back to how they used to be.
...But they didn't. And I'm so irritated. I saw him on the street two days ago, and he was so unbelievably awkward. Like our conversation didn't happen. I know we didn't have an actual conversation, but I thought it could be reasonably inferred that, since we agreed upon the fact that it sucks we haven't talked lately, AND we realized we had lots to discuss, I assumed he'd make an effort to hang out and talk. Now I'm convinced that's not going to happen. And I still don't understand why, after all this time and all these new situations and people in my life, I still have the same thoughts/ emotions regarding him. Well, not exactly ALL of the same thoughts, haha. But still... wanting to have that mental closeness and compatibility is something I've been feeling for the longest time. And now I'm almost convinced that that'll never happen again.
Hello, dream. How does it feel to be deferred?
Also. I'm convinced that my roomie could NOT type any louder/faster. She's crazy. Like, I'm actually convinced. Oh well. Anything beats the past situation, right? Right.
"On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why I’m still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you’ll always be my hero
even though you’ve lost your mind."
...Freaking LOVE that.
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